So I'm 20 now...

The following is a personal narrative about some stuff.


I did it! I made it to the double decade mark! It's hard to believe that I'm no longer a teenager and that i survived 20 years without any major blemishes along the way. Sure I fucked up at places along the way, but who doesn't? It was all part of the grand spectacle that is life. So many experiences I've had, some good, some bad, but all were meant for something. Every little ripple in your life has an affect on all of the other little ripples, there is no such thing as a "bad decision" only outcomes, and the way you make those decisions determines weather the outcome is a fortunate one or an un-fortunate one.

In 20 years of life I have seen 7306 days, or 631,238,400 seconds. That is 631,238,400 different decisions my body has made and 7306 opportunities to view the outcome, and experience the consequences of those decisions. Right now I live with my best friend in Chicago. We have a spacious two bedroom apartment that has, fine furnishings, interesting (yet classy) decor, and a studio that we fill with fine art. Both Matt and I have jobs, a social life, and maintain acceptable grooming habits. I would like to assume that I lead a very fulfilling life that brings me happiness.

Where I am in life right now is directly related, in some way, to everything I have done thus far in life. Not everything, however, was affected strictly upon my prior dictations; Nature, one's environment, and one's nurturing have quite a bit to do with it. A lot of my decisions were made because i was reacting to my pre-disposed and acquired notions towards the situation I was in.

The one only thing that I truly, truly believe in, is, "As you live your life, put as much positivity around you as possible. You MUST make YOURSELF happy, no one else has that power. Experience lots of different things with a truly open mind, then make a decision, and by making those decisions you will end up someplace in life, at some point in life, where you really do find true happiness". I most certainly do not live my life this way in complete line with my belief, but I try too, and I plan on striving to do so from now on.

I guess that what I am describing is a lot like Karma, which it is, but only more active. You are the master of your destiny, but at least try and be good person. please.

In my twenty years of life, I feel like i am finally entitled to say such things with some for of credibility. So thank you, thank you to everyone who i have known, seen, or even heard of, Thank you Mom, Dad, and Cleone, and thank you to my friends, whom most of my decisions where made with. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, me.